Welcome to my Fairyland!

Hello, I warmly welcome you to my fairyland. Can you see a huge canopy of lush green Trees, with dark brown woody heaven under it? It’s a winter morning with fog all over. Slowly a large glowing sphere rises, leaving a golden ray of light amidst the green canopy. And I, am standing there in a white dress with a wreath around my head, directly towards the sun, to feel the warmth of it. The golden light of the sun leaves a golden shade in my hair. Up there, in the middle of the leafy heaven, is a tiny shack, my Tree house, with round stairs.

A drizzling sound will guide you, through the crooked way, in between old teak woods, to the magical waterfall, a complete paradise. The afternoon sun makes the silver-grey water of the stream, goldenly shimmer. I sit across the stream, to feel the water droplets. The light is fading. As the sun begins to set, the sky turns orange and pink. Giving it a look of a painting by a mad artist. The dark grey evening is welcoming several fire flies and I sit and watch them in a state of euphoria.

Soon, it’s dark! My tree house is lit by tiny glowing bulbs of fairy lights all around it. The crisp weather makes me wear my woollen sweater, my muffler and my brown boots. I light the bonfire and sip my coffee. Suddenly I notice stars appearing in the darkest sky. Not taking too much time, the bright stars just lit the dark sky.

I lie down and watch the stars and that’s where ends my Utopia.

Change is the theme of Life!

Well, I have completed nine months of voyage away from home. Not only have I become independent but also I have become more confident about myself. This experience has taught me many things. One or the other day, everyone has to leave homes, cities, friends, family for something important to them. You will really defy your fear of change, and do what you once thought was unthinkable. There will be times when you become skeptical about the decision you've taken and wonder if its all worth it but remind yourself that this was something you've always strived for. You don't get everything precisely that you want, but you get something that is right for you at present. You will perhaps realize it later. Just turn around and look where you started from, you will see a tremendous journey of growth. The fact that the best is yet to come or is yet to hit your destiny will keep you going. Whenever you feel like giving up, think about the people that are waiting for you to do so, but before that think about the people who made a barrel full of sacrifices for you to reach here. There will only be a handful of people who will be happy to see you grow and succeed but there will be hundreds of them waiting for you to fail and to put you down. No one will love you as much as your family does, There will be very very few people who will unconditionally love you, so cling to the ones who actually do. More than anything else, love yourself, embrace yourself and definitely enhance yourself. You have to commit yourself to make yourself better each day. Keep reminding yourself that you are getting prepared for the best. 

That strange feeling!

You get a strange feeling when you're about to leave a place..like you'll not only miss the people you love but you'll miss the person you, yourself were, because you'll never be this way ever again. Something of this sort happened to me too.
Very few days were left for me to leave home and my heart felt heavy. It was not easy for me to accept the fact that I wouldn't stay in this city anymore. There was an awkward silence while having dinner with family. Different kinds of thoughts were flowing in my mind. I had this great fear of change. When my mother woke me up in the morning, something really sad struck my mind- It was difficult for me to separate myself from the person who's face was the first thing I see every morning since past 18 years, my mother. Everyone at home went through an awkward agony. As the days went by, with the blink of an eye, I started to doubt my decision of leaving home to pursue further studies. On the outside I was shining but dying inside. I could see the pain in my mother's eyes, which she tried to hide. Our eyes didn't meet for a familiar reason. She tried hard not to break down. I went through sleepless nights. At night more and more thoughts flowed in my mind, I could feel tears flowing from my eyes, wetting my pillow. Just a day was left and my heart beat began to quicken, I was very very anxious. My mother made no eye contact with me and she kept herself busy. I could sense sadness around her. She came to me with a heavy heart and said,"you're not going to stay here anymore, and you've taken the right decision. I am very happy for the freedom you are going to experience.  Its your time to fly and fulfill your dreams so no looking back." Her eyes were filled with tears when she said this. I wondered how selflessly she said this and it tore me apart. The fear of separation killed me inside and all I could do is pray to god for strength which gave me hope.
I reminded myself everything happens for a reason..