You get a strange feeling when you're about to leave a place..like you'll not only miss the people you love but you'll miss the person you, yourself were, because you'll never be this way ever again. Something of this sort happened to me too.
Very few days were left for me to leave home and my heart felt heavy. It was not easy for me to accept the fact that I wouldn't stay in this city anymore. There was an awkward silence while having dinner with family. Different kinds of thoughts were flowing in my mind. I had this great fear of change. When my mother woke me up in the morning, something really sad struck my mind- It was difficult for me to separate myself from the person who's face was the first thing I see every morning since past 18 years, my mother. Everyone at home went through an awkward agony. As the days went by, with the blink of an eye, I started to doubt my decision of leaving home to pursue further studies. On the outside I was shining but dying inside. I could see the pain in my mother's eyes, which she tried to hide. Our eyes didn't meet for a familiar reason. She tried hard not to break down. I went through sleepless nights. At night more and more thoughts flowed in my mind, I could feel tears flowing from my eyes, wetting my pillow. Just a day was left and my heart beat began to quicken, I was very very anxious. My mother made no eye contact with me and she kept herself busy. I could sense sadness around her. She came to me with a heavy heart and said,"you're not going to stay here anymore, and you've taken the right decision. I am very happy for the freedom you are going to experience. Its your time to fly and fulfill your dreams so no looking back." Her eyes were filled with tears when she said this. I wondered how selflessly she said this and it tore me apart. The fear of separation killed me inside and all I could do is pray to god for strength which gave me hope.
I reminded myself everything happens for a reason..
Very few days were left for me to leave home and my heart felt heavy. It was not easy for me to accept the fact that I wouldn't stay in this city anymore. There was an awkward silence while having dinner with family. Different kinds of thoughts were flowing in my mind. I had this great fear of change. When my mother woke me up in the morning, something really sad struck my mind- It was difficult for me to separate myself from the person who's face was the first thing I see every morning since past 18 years, my mother. Everyone at home went through an awkward agony. As the days went by, with the blink of an eye, I started to doubt my decision of leaving home to pursue further studies. On the outside I was shining but dying inside. I could see the pain in my mother's eyes, which she tried to hide. Our eyes didn't meet for a familiar reason. She tried hard not to break down. I went through sleepless nights. At night more and more thoughts flowed in my mind, I could feel tears flowing from my eyes, wetting my pillow. Just a day was left and my heart beat began to quicken, I was very very anxious. My mother made no eye contact with me and she kept herself busy. I could sense sadness around her. She came to me with a heavy heart and said,"you're not going to stay here anymore, and you've taken the right decision. I am very happy for the freedom you are going to experience. Its your time to fly and fulfill your dreams so no looking back." Her eyes were filled with tears when she said this. I wondered how selflessly she said this and it tore me apart. The fear of separation killed me inside and all I could do is pray to god for strength which gave me hope.
I reminded myself everything happens for a reason..
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